It's Time To Restart.

In this past week there was a meeting with the Board of Education in regards to cutting all of the arts programs. What was their reason? They wanted a new turf football field. A fellow alumni decided to take a stand and asked everyone who was involved in any of these programs (plays, art club, etc.) to film a testimonial to be shown in the meeting.
For me, being a part of the fall dramas and spring musicals meant the world and in many ways saved my life. Speaking for a couple minutes about something I've held dear for all these years was the least that I could do.

In the midst of all this I started thinking-it seemed as if everyone I graduated with all became something involving their passions and at the ages from 21-25 all have their careers planned out. Meanwhile, here I sit settled into a job that means nothing as far as any of my interests are concerned. Don't get me wrong, while I am thankful to be working during this time when the unemployment rate is so high, I don't want to spend my life settled and thinking about all the "what ifs". I want to look back and know that even if I don't make it I still fought for what I wanted.

Having said that, I think it's my time to pull open the curtain and start to embrace what I love...even if it's something that no one else understands.

What does this have to do with a beauty blog?
Well, when I started this back in December I did it all wrong. I wanted to have something posted as often as possible and as a result it began to feel more like work than anything else...which is why I walked away.

Back in high school I had always said the day I stopped acting would be the day it felt like work. I stopped acting due to fear but I hope to one day come back to my beloved stage...just like I've decided to continue this blog.

I realize that I can't change my life in one night but I can start slow. It's time to write again, even if no one else reads this, at least I'll have known that I've done it for myself. I've decided to change things around and while I believe that make-up and beauty will be a large part, it won't be the only subject here.

In doing this, I'm hoping to find the self that I fear I've started to lose through this suit and tie life.
I'm Nicole the professional in the office and Mommy at home, but what I really want is to go to bed at night knowing I'm still myself.

On a side note, if anyone reading this is an Elmwood Park, NJ alumni, please show your concern to the Board of Ed about the loss of something amazing...the arts programs. For some, such as myself, who are not very "sporty", art is all they have and everyone deserves a chance to express themselves.

Thank you for your support on my journey.